Monday, November 30, 2009

New direction and major change ahead

I don't talk a lot about my place of work on Phydeaux, for all the right reasons (e.g., not wanting to publicize my work life on the interwebs). You all know, though, that I took a month medical leave two months ago, which turned into two months of leave. I returned to work today, but what you may not know yet is that this is my last week at my place of work! I've given notice and this week is about wrapping things up.

I have really mixed feelings. I've really really loved my workplace. It's gorgeous, I get to use my skills and experience in healthcare administration and financial/administrative management, and I get to be part of something huge (cutting edge medicine and educating tomorrow's medical leaders).

But, I'm tired. My body and soul are both crying out for a break (hence, the leave). Increasingly, during the past year, I was continually making decisions not in favor of my business, Phydeaux, in order to focus on continual deadlines at work. I've also had to turn away a number of incredible opportunities this year, for the same reason.

And that's not a bad reason! In a world of finite hours governed by the laws of space, time and quantum mechanics (geek alert!), something has to give!

I started my leave beyond tired, with nothing left to give to anyone, least of all myself.

I ended my leave healthier, happier and so much more energetic. And, with a rebuilt belief in myself and my capabilities, allowing me to make this scary - while thrilling - decision.

So, yes, I "quit my day job." However, I'm by no means at a point of sustaining myself entirely via my business (just in case any readers are fantasizing about doing the same).

I'm doing this with equal parts of excitement and terror. YES, I know our economic realities! Hello, I manage finance for a living! I'm only able to do this, perhaps for a finite period, due to resources from my departure, which I will be stretching as long as possible, while massively cutting expenses. Along with part time remote contract work, a little consulting, plus some writing and editing

I suspect I'll return to my employer down the road, likely in a different area/position. It's definitely a difficult place to leave. :)

This week will be insane - it already is - between wrapping up my job, cleaning out 12 years of files and belongings, trying not to weep as I say goodbye to colleagues and work friends who became family so quickly, along with trying to pay at least a little attention to Phydeaux.

During my leave, with more attention and care paid to my business, I started seeing the possibilities as I reworked my business plan, ran several models and scenarios, and started lining up new opportunities. I have lots of new ideas that you'll see next year and I'm entirely confident that this can work.

So, I may post a few things this week, but will be back in action next week! I wish you all every success in your own ventures - enjoy the holiday season!

18 comments:

madichan said...

Best of luck, Brenda! We'll miss you, but I know that great things will be allowed to unfold now that you can dedicate yourself more completely to Phydeaux!

UnaOdd -Lynn said...

Brenda, Wow! Here's to you enjoying your break. Rest and charge up! And here's a !hurrah! for your new endeavors!!!

heatherdyan said...

best of luck, brenda! with change comes excitement and possibility -- i know you will thrive in your next venture.

i'll follow along "virtually" with interest and admiration :)

eNVe said...

You are one brave woman, brenda! seems like you're following your heart so you're bound to succeed. Best of luck to you and can't wait to see what you have up your sleeves! *love and hugs*

Sharon said...

You have so much good energy and enthusiasm in spite of health challenges. You are an inspiration to us all.

Best wishes following your new path!

Phydeaux Designs said...

Thank you, everyone! :) I so appreciate your support and well wishes!!!

heather jane said...

Wow, Brenda!! What a huge change. I'm sure your world will be in a bit of a commotion for awhile, but I hope it will feel really, really good to ease up on your responsibilities and follow your heart.

Wishing you all the best this coming year.

Summer said...

Brenda, I'm so excited for you! I love your confidence and that you realize that your health and happiness are key!

Phydeaux Designs said...

Thank you, Heather and Summer! I have to say that my excitement is outweighing my sadness right this very second, but I'm sure I'll be a mess on Friday (my last day)! xo

msbelle said...

I have total faith in you my friend. Things happen for a reason even though we may not know it at the time. Who knows? Your designs may be on the cover of some fashion magazine at some point! Stranger things have happened! You'll do great!

I do understand about leaving a place you loved to work and the people feeling like family. That's the way it was for me when I left the printing company I'd been with for almost as long as you were at your place. It's sad and you'll miss them. I'm sure there will be tears. Always tears.

You go for it girl! I can't wait to see what you do!

Many blessings and much success my friend! :D

Tricia McKellar said...

Congratulations Brenda!

Phydeaux Designs said...

Thank you Tricia and Ginger! xo

Valerie Tyler said...

Congratulations I think and best of luck to you!!!

Kim said...

Congratulations, you are an inspiration. Thank you for sharing your story. I can't wait to see all the good things that transpire!

wzgirl said...

Hoping your last day at the office went well and was all that you could hope for as far as making this transition. Add me to the list of people proud of you and wishing you the best! xoxo

Phydeaux Designs said...

Awww, thanks Ms. Wendy. It was an incredible week. I was very blessed to work where I did, for so long, making so many friends and working with so many fantastic people. Yesterday was tough! I left awash in tears. Drowned my sorrows in Hawaiian pizza, haha. Now it's back to work ... Renegade is on!

knottynaomi said...

wishing you the best in your new endeavors! and yes...so scary while so exciting...but you can do it! go brenda!!

Phydeaux Designs said...

Thank you, Nomes! As long as I have your wonderful sqoosh monsters ....